I want to go back to a year ago around this time. I was so happy then.
Realizing someone doesn’t give a shit is the worst.
I’m so unable to cope with anything today and I feel so unloved and alone. My mother hates me right now and I hate myself too.
I need someone but I can’t talk to them about anything right now. I want everything to be normal in my life again so so badly.
I don’t usually pray because I never know who or what I’m praying to or even why but I’m praying for peace and calm and happiness and support and love right now because I’m not feeling it in any way at all.
I just want this deep unhappiness to go away.